I know fear. I can feel it all the time. I’m always afraid, to some degree or another. In fact, I have taken up categorizing the different types of fear I feel.
For example, flying in front of a crowd gives a feeling based around my head and heart, while facing a dragon is more in my wings. Being in a large crowd feels claustrophobic, like the whole world is pushing down on me from every side. Facing a pony I don’t know is a force on my front, like something is trying to push me away.
That’s the one I’m feeling now. Sitting in the little deli, waiting. I only want to run, to fly back to my house and hide forever. But I can’t; I have to stay.
I’m not even moving. No nervous twitching, no fidgeting, just perfect stillness. The waiter has come and gone… twice now? I don’t remember if I said anything to him. There’s a glass of water in front of me. Has it been there the whole time?
And then there she is; the most beautiful mare in the world. Her purple hair gleams in the sunlight, her white body radiates grace. She carries herself with the utmost poise towards me, waiter in tow. She sits, the waiter takes our orders, and I can’t get myself out of her eyes.
The fear’s gone now. All that’s left is a this… overwhelming sense of happiness. She talks and I listen and there isn’t anything I would rather do.
The waiter returns with our orders. I guess I ordered a salad. I don’t remember. She talks over her sandwich. It’s only a few minutes before both of our plates are empty. She suggests we take a walk, and we head to the park. Did we pay? I think we did. Well, one of us did. I’ll check later.
We’re in the park now. It’s very nice. We’re under a tree on a hill. I can see all of Ponyville from here. She’s looking me right in the eyes. She isn’t saying anything.
“I love you, Fluttershy.”
Oh, hello Fear. I was wondering where you’d gone to. Well, this was a fun chat, but I can’t stay. I’m doing something right now. Maybe we can meet up later? Well, see you then!
“I… I love you too, Rarity.”
I love you, Rarity. I. Love. You. Rarity. It feels so good to say it. I love you! I want to shout it to the heavens! I want to tell everypony that I’m in love with Rarity and she’s in love with me.
The sun’s going down now. We walked back to the boutique together. We stood in front of her house. More staring, and then she kisses me. Just a little one, right on the cheek. I smiled so wide it hurt. She walks into her house, and I stand still for a few moments, thinking over today.
I turn to walk home. Scenes from today flash in front of my eyes as I walk home. I don’t feel any fear of anything. I’m so happy that today happened.
Oh! I’ll have to make sure to schedule that meeting with Fear in later. I’ll have to ask if Rarity’s doing anything tomorrow. Maybe we can go out to get lunch before the meeting?
This was really sweet. I loved Fluttershy’s constant lack of awareness of her surroundings and the continued personification of her fear. I really liked the part where she said she loved Rarity and she just took a moment to enjoy how good it felt. Hopefully the two of them will have more lunches later on. Good job!